Poetry In Motion

Love Don't Change

2012-02-02T03:09:00.000+08:00

Cause I know true love ain't easy. Girl I know it's you, Cause you complete me.

And I just don't want you to leave me, eventhough I give you reasons..

Cause baby sometimes, I can tell just by your face this part of us been gone for so long,

And I know there's no replacing what we had going on..for so long..

But when it hurts, I can make it better, Girl if it works, it's gone be forever,

We been through the worst, made it through the weather,

Our problems and pain..but Love Don't Change..<3

Dearest love,

I may not be the best guy in the world or the best of anything,

but rest assured I can be your best..

It was never in my intention to hurt you or doubt you...

Misunderstandings a plenty..and I just hope you forgive me if you took it the wrong way...

As corny as it sounds...I cant live without you...

I can't live without having you by my side....having to see the smile on your face..

and I can't live knowing that I hurt you unintentionally...

It kills me inside that I could do such a thing...

I want to give you the best of everything...the best of what I got...

I don't need likes on FB to see how many support us...

I don't need all that attention...I just need you..

just by having you is the best thing in the world...

If we keep our love simple and modest, I believe nothing in the world can stop us from being who we are...

We went through so much and there's so much more that we have to go through...

So put your heart close to mine..and it will all be better..I promise.

QUIT ACTING A BITCH

2012-01-31T04:59:00.000+08:00

Part of me is just sick of all this immatures hanging around,

so if you ask me how to be a man I kindly pen it down,

25 for fuck sake you don't even act your age,

if life was a storybook you're in the puberty page,

You're not psychic,you're pathetic, I know you don't read minds,

Understood, well at least you can read between the lines,of mine,

see im going 19 and I could give a fuck less,

but childish behaviour of 25 year old man is causing me great stress,

Im not hating, im disgusted, and you're the one to blame,

Ramzul Hohenheim Ihsan yeah that's your name,

Stop acting a pussy you know the bad overpowers the good,

so if your humble enough you should'nt ask for credit like you should,

damn where all the mr nice guy go,

dissapointed cause you could'nt meet her after the show?

quit being a bitch if she means that much to you,

start being a man and don't hold back grudges too,

"The listener to the deafs", well I guess you know whassup,

So if you're not a willing party to listen than shut the fuck up...

I hope someway or another you get to my blog and you get to read this shit...
I dunno why the fuck i'm wasting my time on you..
But it just gets to me..how a 25 year old man acts like a pussy...
I know you're a nice guy but fuck..man up..
25 year old..cmon now...even the saying "age is just a number" couldn't cover your shitty ass...
25 man I can't stress it enough..you need 25 year old man problems...not 10 year old...
Just because she went out with me after her performance as planned..
and you thought she was free and wanted to surprise but got disappointed..
you get all emotional and shit...
She's your fucking best friend for fuck sake...She trust you...she even said sorry and you could meet her another time...I'm not even disallowing her to meet you..
cause fuck that even I trust you..but you act like a bitch..so my respect for you just plummets..
If I could deal directly with you I would..not a fight kinda thing..just sit down...
and talk..since you got so many fucking problems and you think people are not there for you..
well my girl is there for you and you're not even thankful..
You're lucky she said its between you and her...so I take a step back..
she's hurt because of you and im hurt because of that fact..so who's the selfish one now?
Think with your head not with your feelings...

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2012-01-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

No matter how dirty your past is, you future is still spotless..
Give me your time and I'll make it worth it..I promise.

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2012-01-18T00:42:00.001+08:00

"What I wanted as I looked through some old photos of you, As I tried to find a different shade of life,
Thinking if minds could really connect,If you knew how I really feel...
Every time I never say the things I should of, could of, Whenever I notice I'm to late to mend, I digress,
Dreams never bring me any closer to you, Desires never do, Days only make me wonder, how far apart we are becoming...
The same thing remains, feelings I have never change, like you do,You have always brought me happiness,
and a smile to my face,I never have stopped wanting you, as if I ever planned too,
Lust reveals the body but the beauty I found in your soul,When I saw a moment unfold like love at first sight,
How we introduced each other as we fell into each others lives,
You've always been dear to me, something I'd never want to lose,
So I Cherish the memory of the day I meet you ..."
Move on..

2012

2012-01-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

Welcome 2012!!yeah im 16 days late..oh well...

I guess the start of 2012 have been a hell of a roller-coaster ride..

Granny got warded and everything..

I swear the day that granny was send to hosp, I was guilty as fuck..

cause the day before I got high with the boyz and lala...:)

if you see the previous post..yup..that was the day..heh..

I shed tears..how weak..ok so over that...it's awesome that she's fine now...

she did a little boogie down when she was at the hosp..happiest thing I ever saw..:)

Well I kinda hate pinoys now..because of the nurse..

last few days she was kinda in charge of granny..

and she was like complaining that there shouldn't be 2 visitors at night with granny..

...but I couldn't really take a shot at her..never know the consequences than...

the worst part was she called the security..now dats fucked up...

but me and cuzzy stood our grounds..heh..awesome please..

My new year was spend at cuzzy's chalet..haha!

it was my first new year at the beach..kinda cool to see the ships shoot out flares when the clock struck 12.

Rizal had his friends..Syed was with Syaza..and I was stuck with Yat..awkward..but he a nice guy..:)

I drank quite abit...it wasn't enough though..didn't get that feeling I wanted..

Gegerl came around 2am with PMY...she kept complaining of my smell..heh..

Funny for a girl who drinks too..pfft...but I love her..

I guess when you love somebody it don't really matter what kind of person they are..

and i'm now still stuck with my driving..money is everything now...and im coming up short...

kinda fucked up..but i'm finishing soon!!just have to book for my TP..wooohooo

but I hate reversing..I get headaches..like so many things to check..I just hope I pass with my first try...

no...I have to pass with my first try!!

den I can drive around alone at night...Just chilling...omg I so want that please..

just me and the car..awesomes!!

but yeah I wanna drive people around too..mother promise me to buy GPS if I pass..awww yeeeaaahhh..

aniwaes...I recently acted like a total mat..heh!

but the guy was pushing his luck..stupid nerdy gamer dickhead...

The bus was fucking pack with people...me and him were like at the back the last people to stand..

den he was so into his fucking iphone game..he never hold the handrail...

every stop the bus made he fucking lean at me for support...like wtf!!

1st time I was all cool with it..2nd time also..3rd time..I gave him the "bitch dont do it again" stare..

but he was so engrossed with his game...4th time I was annoyed..5th time...

I FUCKING PUSH THE FAGGOT DOWN..BITCH DROPPED LIKE A ROTTEN SHIT!!

and I was like..Kau bodoh per tak tau pegang handrail!!

den he was like butoh uh!!! den he got up as if he wanted to take a swing at me..but he did'nt...

he continued with his game..now that's fucked up..I was so ready to take a swing at that bitch..

fucking dick..I was in ITE uniform somemore..hais..

but seriously I just feel that..problems with ITE students and public is 50/50..

either one can instigate..and I guess the problem with ITE students is that they cant stand stares..

the stares of disgust cause you're in ITE...but yeah kids just man up and ignore this low life assholes..

but damn I feel good pushing the guy...if I acted like a bitch I would have stomp him.like step on the bitch.. make him feel sorry for leaning on me..

but 5 leans for 1 push is good enough I guess..

kae and I finally spend time with sisterlurve..and I finally gave her the presents...

she a funny woman...!annoyingly funny...

and I found out me and her suffer from the same problem..hearing..:)

we went out to donate blood...end up she cant donate..cause she had medications...

loser sia...I think I should be like an avid blood donater...

I mean i'm saving lives!!!and I don't really find the need to have all this blood in me..?

hehe..I dunno..I think I just like being sucked..or bitten...*winkwink*

Kae last and final thing.....i'm now having this module called Tourism Products and Services..

and I swear I don't really adore it...

we have to like travel for our project...i mean its good to travel uh..

but than lets say if we recommend duck tours..we have to have evidence that we took the ride and shit like that...damn...what are we?working adults?damn...

dats why me and group finding places that dont require alot of cost....

and mother dont give me allowance..so ya...wth..

and than there's also prom to worry about...damn..money where you at.....

Im done..POINTBLANKPERIOD

I get high if I want to...

2011-12-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

So much for being optimistic...

I say rather be with you but you are not around, so imma call somebody up and see if they be down, cause I hate sleeping alone..I hate sleeping alone..kae dah...

Hello people of the planet earth..how are you right now?high?

Kae just short updates of muuuaaahhh....

My attachment is done with..I kinda miss working in that bank..

with all the drama and shit..

I miss the people..especially Sheila and GL...

it kinda sux that they dont want take photo with me..all teary and shit..den blame on being camera shy..haiya,,

I swear if I could work part time...I would sia....

So currently im working at Toys' R' Us..again..

I knw i said im leaving but theres just something thats holding me back..

but aniwaes it's an easy job now..just count stocks and stuff......

its tedious on the eyes but oh well..anything to escape from customer service..

And today or rather yesterday I saw Amirah..for like 30 mins...

aiya sister why must you be sick when I see you...:(

sedih sia boboy...

kae dats all....i'm fucked..POINTBLANKPERIOD...

I Miss You..

2011-12-13T20:08:00.005+08:00

Thought a thing like this gets better with time..

But I still need you..why is that?

You're the only image in my mind..

I still see you..around..

I miss you...like everyday...

wanna be with you but you're away...

Said I miss you, missing you insane..

But if I got with you, could it feel the same..?

Words don't ever seem to come out right..

But I still mean them..why is that?

It hurts my pride to tell how I feel..

But I still need to..why is that?

I miss you like everyday...

wanna be with you but you're away...

Said I miss you, missing you insane..

If I got with you, could it feel the same..?

It don't matter who you are..it is so simple..."A feeling"..

But it's everything..
No matter who you love..It is so simple..."A feeling"..

But it's everything...

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2011-12-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

No wonder why there's no mirrors on this walls no more,

you can't tell me why you're so terrified of beautiful,

scared of the good more than the evil,

scared of the light more than the dark,

scared of the truth so much more than the lies,

i'm scared for you, i'm scared of you,

scared of beautiful...:(

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2011-12-11T03:49:00.001+08:00

See in my mind i'm just so distant from everybody but in actual fact i'm not...
and there's so many things that I should be thankful for but then again i'm not..
So when shit happens I just find myself so isolated and so hard to get by to who I trust..
cause in actual fact I don't trust a lot...
See I've been in a position where there's me and me and me only..
So when I zoned out and fall, there's no hands that I can land on, but only my bare back..
so if it crack's i'm hurt but if doesn't I get back up and shrug it off...
Either way I get harder and bolder and face the problems head on..
see the context of how I live by is to fight for my rights and fight for the people I love..
and whatever rights I get is mine to keep..and whoever I love is mine to cherish..
so there's no time or money that can ever change me for who I am..
cause I'm always trying...trying to better myself..but still not losing the essence of what makes me, me...
And girl, I love you...and this cold war of hell-knows-what..hurts me deep..
cause i'm forever asking what's wrong and you never seem to voiced out why..
and you should know i'm the type of person who likes to probe a lot...
but what I've learn from you is that, I shouldn't..
cause you're so hot headed and i'm so hard headed..that we tend to just silence things out..
so I backed my ass off..
which definitely sucks cause I will never know what the hell happened..
and we just live by it like nothing..
and I never judged you..I never once did..
It never occurred to me to defy you by your past..
and it's never in my will to defy who you are now...
cause what is love if we defy the person...it would just be filled with expectations...
and you know how that kills....
See in my world..how I see it is like sugar, it crumbles ever so easily,
but i'm never the type of person who is scared to take out my tongue and taste it...
cause even if the taste change,...'one day'...
I know for a fact that I have tasted the sweetness of what it is and live by the bitterness it turned out to be...
So baby don't leave me now cause that 'one day' is not today...
and today I share my sweetness with you for the love of tomorrow..
so that tomorrow's 'one day' will never come..Rose.<3

Headlines

2011-12-08T23:13:00.001+08:00

I heard once they would rather hear about memories than enemies

Rather hear what was or what will be than what is

Rather hear how you got it over how much it cost you

Rather hear about finding yourself and how you lost you

Rather you make this an open letter, about family and struggle and it taking forever

About hearts that you've broken and ties that you've severed

No doubt in my mind, that'll make them feel better...

Feel Love

2011-12-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

Everybody has an addiction..mine just happens to be you..

Girlfriend's Bestfriend

2011-11-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

Its 2am, got a call, from a girl you should know,

She heard noise got a little scared,

now you of all people should know, she hates sleeping alone,

but still you ain't home, so since your no where to be found,

no trip bro imma hold her down...

I'm your girlfriend's bestfriend, soon I'll be taking over,

I'm your girlfriends's besfriend, you don't treat her like you're supposed to,

with your; wandering eyes, all your cheating and lying,

Imma step up and do what I gotta, as your girlfriend's bestfriend,

soon I'll be taking,soon, soon, I'll be taking your spot...

Now i'm not hating on your situation,

but all i'm saying, these chicks are crazy,

you've got a good girl, who's all about you,

it's gonna take you losing her, for you to know what you really had,

on the spotlight warming the bed,

but as soon as you drop the ball, I'll be ready to pick up where you left off...

I'm your girlfriend's bestfriend, soon I'll be taking over,

I'm your girlfriends's besfriend, you don't treat her like you're supposed to,

with your; wandering eyes, all your cheating and lying,

Imma step up and do what I gotta, as your girlfriend's bestfriend,

soon I'll be taking,soon, soon, I'll be taking your spot...:)

Sooner than Later..

2011-11-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

Out of the billions living in this very world, it is you I choose to love,

and im writing to let you know, you're always the one that im thinking of..

no matter how good or bad my day could be, theres nothing that matters most,

but you and you only, is what im dreaming of when my very eyes are closed,

I could never love anyone else, no one else comes close to you,

the little pain will bring the rain, but remember the sun will eventually come up too,

the humps and bumps will stick awhile, cause the journey is never smooth,

but hold my hand and i'll embraced, there's nothing that cant be moved,

my dearest girl, you mean the world, who ever said life was fair,

but i hold you down and be around, i promise to always be there,

so never crumble upon your feet, and be tired and admit defeat,

together we can defy any moment, moments that will turn out sweet,

i love you for who you are, and the time in you i've planted,

so let our love grow amidst the time, I will never take you for granted..

my dearest girl,my dearest Rose, anything for you i'll pardon,

cause if every time i'll think of you was a flower, I would have my very own garden...

Thousands of words spoken could never really describe, how i glow when i'm thinking of you,

or this beautiful love i feel inside,

if i gave u a thousand kisses, they could never really convey,

how i always want to be with you or how you brighten up my day,

a thousand smiles in your direction, could never justify how i feel, nor could they ever thank you enough, for how my heart beats still,

even if i was wrapped in your embrace more than a thousand times, it wouldn't be possible to show you, how glad i am if you were mine,

more than a thousand laughs, wouldn't show how happy u make me, for you im just ecstatic,

feeling so carefree, together we commit a beautiful crime, putting all this love on the line,

cause i'm trying to steal your heart when you already stole mine..

I promise that during my days you will be my only, i hope you will be there for me when my nights are lonely,

you can count on me whenever you are down, i will save you before you hit the ground,

i promise to be your strength when you feel like breaking, i'll embrace you tight so you'll stop shaking,

I know we can get through anything that life may throw, i'll be by your side, i promise to never let go,

i just want to tell you, you mean so much to me, i see you as nothing less than the world, and that i want you to see,

i never want to lose you, i never want to fight, i want to spend all my days with you, even in the night,

each and every word i write, is coming from my heart, and all i ever asked for, is for us to never part, please know my poems,is a poem just for you, and i'm happy when you say i love you, cause i'll always love you too...<3

20112011

2011-11-20T22:38:00.001+08:00

Who are we really? Hiding behind this potent masks,

Revelations of only what we desire, pretending..pretending,

Who are we really, if we never seek what we choose to find,

fall in the pits of emotions and than proclaim "that ain't mine",

who do we look up to, when the ones that truly matters,lies,

as we hide our disappointments and we smile as disguise,

who do we plan out to be, when life isn't reassuring,

do we still pursue the dream, when our hopes are faltering,

Who do we trust most, if we got issues that needs to be heard,

society isn't fair and half of it don't care if you're hurt,

who can we be, when being us is not satisfactory,

do we do what please or do we please everybody,

who are the ones, that we truly love and we believe,

are they the same ones that wears the mask that we don't perceived,

who are we to deny, how we feel with the fear of rejection,

tell me is it better to have false hope or just get lost in directions,

who understand us most, if being dependent is a necessity,

do we put a hundred percent in and know its a guarantee,

So tell me who I am, cause I seek happiness it might bring,

but till then, I only reveal what I desire, pretending..pretending...

Yeah right..

2011-11-19T23:07:00.005+08:00

I learned working with the negatives can work for a better picture..get it..?

Doing it wrong...

2011-11-08T20:01:00.001+08:00

We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together but we sure make it feel like we're together.. because we're scared to see each other with someone else...-Drake

Little Bit..

2011-11-05T01:23:00.067+08:00

With eyes shut, its you i'm thinking of you...

Hello munchkinz..I have not been blogging for awhile now..

Too fucking busy with work and sayang..heh..

Happy Hari Raya Haji to all my muslim brothers and sisters out there..hope you had a great one..

Aniwaes updates..I'm currently having my attachment...8 more weeks to go...

Working in a bank is awesome..its like cashiering basically..but alot more detailed...

and I feel like im really too young to be feeling this old..

like imagine a 35 year old man asking you whats a cashiers order or how does he go about depositing a cheque..like oh no you didn't..

its fucking weird to be telling him what its all about..I dunno why its weird but i feel like that..capiche

and i've handle more cash den I ever did in my 18 years in this world...

that's a good thing...I want that kinda money in my bank when I grow older...

what else....oh..counting a pack of 50s worth over 35K is so not cool...

I always thought that we could use the note counting machine but no!!have to hand count first..

im jealous of all this rich and smart and successful people...

I wanna be just like them not like some mats and scums of the society..

I want change my Atm card to Go card..I issue alot this past week...

I have never seen a successful rich malay guy on tv..never..

I hate mats...but the dudes always say I look like one...oh snap!

dicks..im nothing like them and never will be..

tell me which mat wants success...they just wanna enjoy with that little money they have...

fucking dicks..

and Dad fuck you..dats all..

sometimes I wish I had a better dad...or mum would remarry or something..

I so want a sister...I wouldn't mind if she's adopted..

I need a new job after attachment...

Selling toys just ain't my thing anymore...don't have that Toys'R'Us kid feeling anymore..

I need a damn holiday..fuck it even if its Batam its good enough...

I want all my money back Dad..you don't put in money for a kid to use just to take it back right...

What's This!!

I'll be the best Dad ever...I learn from your mistakes Dad...isn't that a stupid thing to do when you should be the one learning it..I guess you should have read 'How to be a good Dad' for dummies before you even had me..

I wasn't expecting anything great from you either..but you fall way below average..

You fail as a Dad, as a husband, as a man...

No man tell's a kid.. I'm getting your mum back...

and never do a single fucking thing...all this words and shit don't do no justice...

you have to do what u say..mean it for fuck sake....

you suck...hahahaha

I'm evil...society's evil..if you can't beat them join them right...

I got my perceptions all wrong but fuck it i'm being me..

the best part about being honest is you don't have to remember what you say...

so be honest people..dont be fucking around with all the lies and deceit..

karma will hit you..and then I will hit you..cunt.

Ok i'm done here...I swear i'm paranoid..POINTBLANKPERIOD

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2011-10-31T10:55:00.000+08:00

I fear what not lies behind me or what lies ahead of me..

I fear what lies within me..

Mr Wrong

2011-10-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

Don’t it seem like, like I’m always there when it matters,

But missing most of the other time, a terrible pattern,

The rewards I see from working made me an addict,
There's way more people that want it than people that have it,

I dont get it, I would hate to think I tricked ‘em,

They fall victim to my system, guess I sure know how to pick ‘em,

And I’m always her regret, yeah, I’m always her regret

,And I always make it harder on whoever’s coming next,

It goes up and down, it’s just up and down,

She’s crying now but she’ll laugh again,

Cause we on the rise and she here with us,

In expensive shit, just keeps happening,

She loves it, she stares at me like who does this,

And we hold hands while I pray that she’s not the type to hold grudges,

I’m wrong..

The Real Her

2011-10-23T01:46:00.001+08:00

They keep telling me don't save you,

If I ignore all that advice then something isn't right,

then who will I complain to?
But the weekend's here started it right,
Even if I get part of it right,
Live for today, plan for tomorrow ,
Party tonight, party tonight,
You got your guards up, I do too,
There's things we might discover,
Cause you got your path and I do too,
We're perfect for each other...

:)

2011-10-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

Real men stay faithful..they don't have time to look for other women because;

they're too busy looking for new ways to love their own..

Make Me Proud

2011-10-15T01:33:00.000+08:00

I like a woman with a future and a past, A little attitude problem all good, it'll make shit last,

Don't make it too easy girl, don't take it too fast, yeah thats it right there, thats it do it just like that...

I know things get hard but girl you got it,

you got it there you go, can't you tell by how they looking at you everywhere you go,

Wondering what's on your mind, it must be hard to be that fine,

when all this muthafuckas wanna waste your time,

it's just amazing girl, and all I can say is..

Im so,I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so proud of you..

Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back,

that's why you're bad as fuck and you know you are..:)

True Enough..

2011-10-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

If I told you I was perfect, I'll be lying,

If there's something I'm not doing, Girl i'm trying,

I know I'm no angel but i'm not so bad..

IAP

2011-09-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

Hello World..

I guess its about time I blog about stuff...as you may or may not know...or don't give a damn about...

I went to NZ from 18 sept to 24 sept...yeah...

it was lovely...I like it...

but there wasnt really anything to buy...end up I only bought 1 tshirt for myself...

the rest all for people...

sometimes I feel I care more about people..

oh well...I only spend 1/4 of what I brought..so dats a good thing right...

and my face likes it there...all cooling...come back singapore dry as hanging out clothes to dry...heh..lame..

dats why u dont see white people with bad pimple outbreak...damn...

stupid weather...

To read more about my NZ trip click the link at the previous post..im to lazy to blog about NZ trip all...

and aniwaes results are out yesterday!!!i havent seen them yet...

I think I did badly...so I'll spare the disappointment for another day...

just get through with my IAP first..cause results will sure as hell affect me....

and Aziela I read your blog...omg!!!im jealous of your results can...envy..distinctions for everything..

cool giler...I want your brainz...kae dah..

and Im attached at POSB...in Serangoon....

Im happy cause I don't have to like use bus fair and all...5 mins walk from my hse...

but I wanted it to be in town area..dhoby ghaut...or at least somewhere that requires travelling...

somewhere I could flaunt what I'm wearing...haha...you guys want that kind of attention..don't deny...

I mean like...dress smart den go down only..like shiish...

aniwaes i'm thankful....I always am thankful...

Oh and I got a new camera....Canon Powershot S95...

its my wifey for now...

Rose say its ugly...what an ass..jilat your armpit!...its beautiful..slick..and it takes memories..how can that be ugly..

and I realise the one with the camera ends up taking more photos of people instead of themselves...

oh well....

And I miss my TRU peeps....

I miss AMIRAH AZHAR....its funny that I always chat with you...but I miss you most...like alot alot...

come by POSB and withdraw money kae...hahahaha...:)

...I think my life will be more interesting once I start my internship...

oooh and moolahs!!!me want moolahs....money excites me..

and the thought of people trusting me with their money..and me being trusted...

is like...orgasmic...

and I heard they will send like intelligence to track what we've been saying in facebook, twitter or even blog...

I mean...i'm just being myself...I don't change for anybody....

like everyone says things and do things..if people were to judge base on just that event..

than there will always be a problem...

oh well...I stay humble in being me..even if its not to peoples liking...

cause at the end of the day you'll have to take off the mask..so might as well be natural..

den no need stress on all the false pretense...i think i make sense...oh well..

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance....

and get wasted...if u get what i mean..no regrets.POINTBLANKPERIOD

New Zealand

2011-09-26T09:00:00.000+08:00

For a full view of my NZ trip..Click Here!

Take Off..

2011-09-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

And so I shall meet the skies again..:)

Miss You So...

2011-09-16T11:49:00.001+08:00

How am I supposed to remember?
I got the memories,
but memories fade, baby,
What am I gonna show to my kids, girl?
When I'm older, and my mind is telling me to forget you,
What's gonna make me remember?
That's why I was always taking pictures, pictures,
Cause I didn't want to miss a thing, miss a thing,
Tell me how could you take the pictures, pictures,
When you knew they were all that I had left, nothing left,
They were part of our history, this story,
I was always taking pictures,
Cause I didn't wanna miss you so bad, miss you this bad,
Miss you so bad, miss you so...

Tell Me

2011-09-12T13:20:00.001+08:00

I guess it’s beautiful without all this unplanned feelings,

Satisfied with the breeze and the nice calm evening,

And they told me my old girl got somebody new,

So I wonder if he’s gonna do it better than I do,

Well I dunno, you confuse me,

so far gone, and im losing,

all this times, and its hurting so,

oh well, I probably already shoulda accept what I heard,

I had my eyes on you and now my vision is blurred,

The memories we had I cherish it cause I thought it was fun,

But at the end of the day more things were said than done,

And more of who of we are, it’s what we probably lose,

So if I want you back, it’s probably an excuse..yeah

Tell me did I just crossed the line,

It just got to me,

That you were never mine,

To think we had all of this trust but now it’s gone,

But I still gonna remember it all..

So I heard that the early bird catches the worm,

So much misdirections, I had to confirm,

Cause I don’t wanna play with fire, I’ll probably get burn,

People leave every time, that’s the shit that I learn,

And I’m starting this love cycle over again,

Falling in love at the wrong timing so it would probably would end,

So much probabilities, it just sucks to know,

Cause what you have u might lose and they tend to go,

Beyond what matters, they’ll just look at the time,

Material, material, is probably their design,

and I am fine, I can afford that,

not all the time but you enjoy that,

and I dunno what more do I have to do,

to convince you, that I love you,

even through all the shit that you put me through,

all the shit all the shit that you made me do,

I’m funny, I can't even describe what I’m feeling,

Staring in blank space at the whitest ceiling,

But ironically I feel dark, truth is revealing,

Scars can leave a mark, it takes time for healing,

Yeah..im losing myself being somebody else,

Cause you’re never satisfied with me being myself,

And I’m down to change all cause of you,

But would you do the same if I wanted you to..

Tell me did I just crossed the line,

It just got to me,

That you were never mine,

To think we had all of this trust but now it’s gone,

But I still gonna remember it all..

Like I love you but I can't...:).xoxo

Shut It Down

2011-09-09T03:01:00.001+08:00

Ice cream conversations they all want the scoop..
Look at her..all angry and pissed...but still my cute girl..heh
aniwaes exams finally over...WOOHOOOO...
no more open books chapter 8 shit...im a free man..morgan freeman...kae lame
I think this post is gonna be shitty..cause its 2.54am..and I feel restless as fuck..
the funny thing about this term's exams is that i made notes for every single module but i'm not confident for any...
I got a feeling that my BOP gonna suck..CRM gonna suck and PFP gonna suck..wait that's all the modules..
thats the point..it all sucked..
I hope I get Bs for everything..C is fine but no Ds please...
and im going NZ next week..happy giler dok...
kae dats all..haha..lazy..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Material Girl

2011-09-02T19:21:00.001+08:00

I gotta confession to make,

I don't rush a date, commitment is an enemy to me,

but ever since your lips touched my face, it's like a kiss from space,

I mean, I mean, I mean, I usually like to slow down the pace,

love to tease and play, but girl I need to be direct with you,

cause in my mind your voice just replays, like a broken tape what you do, what you do, what you do,

gonna make a nigga buy a ring for ya finger,

jimmies for ya feet, jeans for that back,lingerie for the sheets,

material girl, anything you need,and i'ma give it to ya, to ya, imma give it all, i'ma give it all...

Super star under cover, you're my number 1 fan,

give it to me right, less a diamond glow ya hand,

get you wetter than before, right after the dessert,

baby you're my dairy queen, watch you make my baby cream,

lady you're the one that i wanna spend my cash on,spend my cash on my baby like,

baby, just make sure that you'll always put your man on,

gonna make a nigga buy a ring for ya finger,jimmies for ya feet,

jeans for that back,lingerie for the sheets,

material girl, anything you need, and i'ma give it to ya, to ya,imma give it all, i'ma give it all...

Tripping over you like a crack on the floor, can't settle with a taste,

babygirl give me more, baby take the keys to my ride, to my home,

girl i'ma it rain like a tropical storm,

tripping over you like a crack on the floor,can't settle with a taste,

babygirl give me more,baby take the keys to my ride, to my home,

girl i'ma it rain like a tropical storm..

ring for ya finger,jimmies for ya feet,

jeans for that back, lingerie for the sheets,

material girl, anything you need, and i'ma give it to ya, to ya,

imma give it all, imma give it all....

Independence

2011-08-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

Stand for Something even if it means Standing Alone..

Blame Game

2011-08-28T03:10:00.001+08:00

"Who to blame? you to blame? me to blame?

for the pain and it poured every time when it rained,

Lets Play the Blame Game...I love you more"

I'll start hating only if you make me.

2011-08-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

Dear self...

If you realize.. you've been neglecting your loved ones...

from your family to your friends...

if ever they should leave without notice, don't blame them about it..blame that person in the mirror..you..

have you ever take the initiative to call them up and ask their well-beings..no..you never did...not once..

slowly you'll lose them all right?...if that happens..what then?

Crying over spilt milk won't do justice..

have you not learn a lesson?does it not occur to you that this is happening time and time again..

you just let them in but left them hanging out the door..why?

haven't you seen enough of that?have you not come to consensus?

You're selfish...all you think about is yourself..

why try to obtain that money?...why think that money is everything...?

money don't love you as much as you love money...people do..

they love you..and if they don't...you'll know where you stand..

but that does not give you a reason to hate..just move along..

You know you work hard for that money...you earn it..

you save for the things you want..you even gave away to those who need it..

but money is material..what you need is time...have you got any?

with all this stuff going on will you spare some?

or will you continue leading this selfish life you've been living for the past 10 years..

that's a decade long boy..why still pursue?

you should never have let that event hit you that hard..

see how you end up now..all defensive..finding it hard to trust..

you say you changed but you never did..

you're still being you..there's good and bad..but mostly bad..

what good is all the cash if it doesn't buy time..

hold them before you lose them..

cause once you lose them you'll lose abit of yourself too right..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Nostalgia

2011-08-22T02:09:00.001+08:00

I've been missing you..too long,

it hurts to come off strong,

I've been leaving you...alone,

that its sucks to be on the phone,

waiting, debating for nothing to come out from,

just waiting, debating for nothing but...

nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia,

is all I get from you, will this do?

not for me, but for you,

will you remember all the times,

all the memories, we've kept..

nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia....

,,

2011-08-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

You can either ignore an obvious problem or you can be a man and face it head on..

She will

2011-08-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

"I'm all about "I" give the rest of the vowels back.."

Tyga

2011-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

Some people think it's wrong, being single isn't right

But you hurt the right person you'll be wrong all your life..

Think..

2011-08-08T23:09:00.001+08:00

As I locked myself inside of my room, the world just seem to pass by,

And I don’t even try, to make it worth it,

Usually it’s a matter of time, before I move back in line,

To a normal state of the mind but I don't think so..

I’ve been thinking bout you.. I’ve been thinking bout you.

I've been thinking bout you..do you think about me still??do you? do you?

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I’ve been thinking bout you forever…

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I've been thinking bout you forever…

I didn’t want to fall for you from the start, avoiding matters of the heart,

Now this feelings I can’t part and I can’t take it,

Now I see myself all alone, all the cigarettes that I’ve blown,

Is making me nauseous and thrown, I should have known but..,

I've been thinking bout you..I’ve been thinking bout you.

I've been thinking bout you..do you think about me still??do you? do you?

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I’ve been thinking bout you forever…

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I’ve been thinking bout you forever…

Well if my thoughts about you were flowers I would have a garden,

And if it hurts to love I’ll still pursue as it gets stronger and harden,

Love distills desire upon the eyes and brings bewitching grace into the heart,

Distance is just a matter of miles and thinking bout you is just the start,

There’s not much that I can do, but to love you for who you really are,

To what you’ve become and how far we’ve been,

To see where we left off and to start anew,

Well if time precedes before I could make a choice,

I hope that someday you’ll hear that voice,

That I’ve been thinking bout you and you think about me still…

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I've been thinking bout you forever…

Or do you got some other things in mind…

Cause I’ve been thinking bout you forever…

I’ve been thinking bout you..:)

Facebook

2011-08-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

A place to vent your feelings when more than half of the people don't care..
Grow up, everyone got their own problems..300 or more people don't need to know yours..:)

..

2011-08-04T22:03:00.001+08:00

There will be tears....I've no doubt..

There may be smiles...but a few...

Headlines

2011-08-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

Next Rihanna..*feeling*..POW!!

I started not to give a Fuck & stop fearing the Consequence..

Done..

2011-07-29T03:46:00.001+08:00

TIRED AS FUCK RIGHT NOW

DEMONIC PROJECTS HAVE BEEN SLAYED..

ALL HAIL THE MASTER...ME..:)

Walking Paradox

2011-07-26T00:13:00.001+08:00

Hello World..how have you been lately?? is your boyfriend treating you right?? is you girlfy being a bitch??well, im just saying you could do better...tell me have you heard that lately..

I find people complaining about relationships stupid..I mean its ok if you're tryna ask like how to make it better but complaining on how shitty your relationship is bears no fruit to the conversation because i won't have any comments or all that i'm gonna say is, i'm just saying you could do better..I mean what else do u want me to say..oh what a shitty partner..break up is a good idea!!like that would ever get stuck in your head and you would actually do it..

See the problem is.. people my age just can't seem to let go..you heard stories but you don't want to believe..your gut says he's cheating but you heart still loves him..all this fucking contradictions make me sick..

if you want opinions, i'll give you opinions..but if you already got an answer at the back of your head, stop fucking around and shit..shit just piss me off sometimes..prick..

and I don't know how me being quiet can be arrogance..fuck that shit..I talk as and when I want too..you don't make the decisions around here...and I hate my aunt for that shit..fucking backstabber..just because I don't fucking talk to your kids, it means I don't like them?who the fuck taught you that shit?..and I hate how people can talk behind someone's back then put up with false pretense..like fucking dick I can see right through your corny ass face..stop that shit..seriously..

I wonder if my blog is still linked with the PSL website...I don't know who the hell Jerald think he is by just taking my blog link and paste it on there but hey it's 2 years ago..shit just fade... and hey kids this is your senior all grown up talking bout life and shit..you can either understand me or just hate my ego...

Ok enough ranting....

Last week was a crazy week...Monday had this surprise surprise presentation early..and I was so unprepared for it..like how can I even do a presentation when the report is not done?but my group made it through..thanks to a freaking video I found..like saviour from the madden beast..Tuesday I ran around the park preparing for Wednesday..Wednesday had nafa.which I think I will get silver again..Thursday had CCA..Friday was dragon boating day!!..which was hella fun..although I didn't get to row with my class, the situation was chill..had the malay boys row with me..plus YL and CK..I sat infront with Mr Zaki..we were the pacers..so what we really had to do was just count..the middle were the engines..the speed and power..the back was I dunno what..but had this fat bitch from another class, she thinks she owns the world..if the boat sank..I would probably blame her first for being a fat bitch..I got no hate for fat people, only fat bitches..it sucks that we did'nt get to take a class photo at the very end..guess the people were all to tired..and my thumb still hurts cause I kept holding the pedal wrongly.. and after all that shit, Saturday I had to work..Full shift..the place don't have that inviting aura no more..like last time everyone would wait for everyone to finish..but I feel like this time I just can't wait for anybody..i'm done, I go..yeah...and Sunday had to finish up PFP report..at first she said it would be exteded to 29 july but then she took back her words and said 25..and everyone started bitching about that shit...like people seriously..you had the whole fucking holiday to do that shit...don't complain..but I must say I did shitty for projects nowadays..like there's no guidelines on how to do it..which is simply fucked up...there's no more feeding spoons, there's just a bunch of fucking chopsticks..if you get my point..

Well for next month..it's the month of RAMADHAN..fasting month..I wonder why I even fast when I don't even pray and i'm probably busy with my practical driving..which means that I can't go the amazing race with the Germans..which kinda sucked..that's why I hate last minute plans..like seriously can't you just confirm like 2 weeks or 3 weeks before...like fucking up my schedule..and in September I have a New Zealand trip and the date is not confirm...which is like fucked up cause I can't book for my practical...if it clash who the fuck gonna pay me 300 bucks..its my money dammit..money don't grown in tree, it's full of blood sweat and effort...dammit...I think i'm gonna pass like next year...since attachment is drawing near..everything is hella fucked..I wish everyone was like a tiny bit organised with their shit...and like invest on a fucking printer..yeah..don't say i'm selfish and shit for not printing, fucking prick...give me 80 bucks each month for ink to print your shit than i'll consider printing it for you but for now you're the fucking selfish one dicks...I curse too hella much..but I like it..i'm a fucking walking paradox..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Leaving you

2011-07-17T01:24:00.001+08:00

I kinda wonder if I cross ya mind,

Maybe you my ex cause you crossed the line,

Maybe you just never saw the crossing signs,

Cause the hand up means don’t walk,We don’t talk,

And somewhere there’s a disconnection,

You take it the wrong way so much misdirection,

Baby what it is, tell me what it does,

This is what it is, fuck what it was,

But it was good while it lasted,

But when its dead let it go, put it in a casket,

And don’t dig it back up,Got my swagga back up,

I pick up to call you then I hang it back up,

Yeah , and imma get back to ‘em,
To know a backstabber, you gotta turn ya back to ‘em,

Well maybe its just me and I’m going crazy,

But let me ask you this,Where you going baby??

..

2011-07-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

Truth

2011-07-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

Don't get mad because I don't give a fuck; be mad because I once did & you were too blind to see...

:)

2011-06-29T02:44:00.000+08:00

"I hope you fall for him and I hope he makes you think he fell for you too and while your planning your life together, I hope he gets up and walks right out of your front door. I hope you never see him again and that he breaks your fucking heart just like you broke mine."

VANS Half Cab

2011-06-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

Finally got it..:)

Tumblr

2011-06-22T15:08:00.001+08:00

So today I made Tumblr!! cause I find the pictures effin cool..still in the process of understanding how to use it..
Ok click here to go there..:)

Trust Issues

2011-06-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

Same boy that you knew way back when, you acting like It's somebody you don't know,

Tell me how the fuck we supposed to stay friends when you got a bunch of feelings that you don't show..

I rev the fucking engine and I like it...:)

2011-06-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

Look at that baby boo...*steams*...
all swagged out with the fucking neon lights & the shiny rims with the slick black exterior colour & the headlights fucking winking its eyes at me..stop flirting with me dammit..*blushes*
the only thing missing from you is me inside...
caress your steering wheel..foreplay with your stick shift..kae dah...
Sexy sia the car..its like a mini version of a Hummer..cute cute..
kae today.. I had my first prac lesson..it was fucking awesome...
I think if it went horribly wrong, I wont even blog bout today..
I love reving the engine..omg..the sound and vibration..kiwak..lovely..
and I only stalled the engine once..thats good for a beginner right....hehe..
and my instructor is hella chill..I loike...
Plus he nice...tell me stories about stupid students...
I think he world giler uh...but it motivates me..so yeah..
well I only like book 1 prac lesson..which kinda suck..if I had top up earlier..could have alot sia..
nvm wait for august....18 aug FTT..hopefully I do well..
BTT was easy..tak action..seriously..and I met with white boy Carlvin..
I swear meeting people you havent met for a long time..is so fucking fun..depends luh on the person..
cause people who step gerek..i step tak nampak luh..mcm gitu carenya..
meanwhile for school exams..I think I did freaking badly..
People always say.."aiya you always say never study end up also get A..."
walauwei..expectations fucking kills sia...
It's like shoving a peanut down your peehole and expecting you to pee..it fucking kills..
and I..am going back to TRU during hols..
with the simple fact of saving money for my driving lessons & New Zealand trip...heh..
finding another job is so fucking hard and my pimple scars aint helping..fuck..
Mum dont let me be waiter..
Mum dont let me work with her also..walauwei...
kae dah...I hope I go to poly at the end of the day..I hope 2011 is a fucking fruitful year for me..
kae lets not hope..lets make it a reality.....
cause its never enough to just fucking aim ain't it..you have to hit the target..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Marvin's Room

2011-06-09T21:44:00.004+08:00

Cups of the Rose,
Bitches in my old phone,
I should call one and go home,
I’ve been in this club too long
The woman that I would try,
Is happy with a good guy,

But I’ve been drinking so much,
That I’ma call her anyway and say,
“Fuck that nigga that you love so bad,
I know you still think about the times we had”,
I say “fuck that nigga that you think you found,
And since you picked up I know he’s not around”..

(Are you drunk right now?)

I’m just saying, you could do better,
Tell me have you heard that lately?
I’m just saying you could do better,
And I’ll start hating, only if you make me..

Uh, cups of the XO,
All my people been here,
I see all of her friends here,
Guess she don’t have the time to kick it no more,
Flights in the morning,
What you doing thats so important?
I’ve been drinking so much,
That imma call you anyway and say,

“Fuck that nigga that you love so bad,
I know you still think about the times we had”,
I say “fuck that nigga that you think you found,
And since you picked up I know he’s not around”..
(Are you drunk right now?)

I’m just saying, you could do better,
Tell me have you heard that lately,
I’m just sayin’ you could do better,
And I’ll start hating, only if you make me,
I think I’m addicted to naked pictures,
And sittin talking bout bitches,
that we almost had,
I don’t think I’m concious of making monsters,
Outta the women that I sponsor till it all goes bad,
But shit it’s all good,
We threw a party, yeah we threw a party,
Bitches came over, yeah, we threw a party,
I was just calling cause they were just leaving,
Talk to me please, don’t have much to believe in,
I need you right now, are you down to listen to me?
Too many drinks have been given to me,
I got some women that's living off me,
Paid for their flights and hotels I’m ashamed,
Bet that you know them, I won’t say no names,
After a while girl they all seem the same,
I’ve had sex four times this week I’ll explain,
Having a hard time adjusting to fame,
Sprite in that mixture, I’ve been talking crazy girl,
I’m lucky that you picked up,
Lucky that you stayed on,
I need someone to put this weight on,

“Well I’m sorry...”
“Are you drunk right now?”

I’m just saying, you could do better,
Tell me have you heard that lately,
I’m just saying you could do better,
And I’ll start hating, only if you make me..

“You’re not going to come?”
“Guess i’m bout to just kick it here then…”

Just throw up while I hold your hair back,
Her white friend said “you niggas crazy”,
I hope no-one heard that,
I hope no-one heard that,
Cause if they did, we gon be in some trouble...:)

Lights Down Low

2011-05-29T02:46:00.001+08:00

Let’s get lost in the winter, The sun has gone away,

The bright lights turn to dark..

The world is cold and if it gets any colder,

Well I’ll be gone.. I’ll be gone..

Look I can’t stand this place…

Is it me or is it the world, is it the dreams I chase,

Times gunning fast now is it me I race,

Cause when I look back and reflect there’s only me I face,

Questions raised,

How do you live life when it’s up to taste,

why do you judge people when it’s not a case,

Watch your thoughts though cause they become words, they become actions,

They become the triggers of emotions and mass reactions,

Put it on you to blame and start all this hate shit,

Cause people don’t like the truth they never like to face it,

But face it, what’s the truth compared to all the lies,

The eyes don’t speak but the truth will soon arise..so lets..

Let’s get lost in the winter, The sun has gone away,

The bright lights turn to dark..

The world is cold and if it gets any colder,

Well I’ll be gone.. I’ll be gone..

I’ll be gone..like the fishes needs the sea,

like you was a big part of me,

like I give a damn with every little thing you do,

well not anymore, I walked out straight out the door,

that separates from the truth and lies,

and what I’m gonna do tonight is to..

Get so lost in the winter, the sun has gone away,

The bright lights turn to dark..

The world is cold and if it gets any colder,

Well I’ll be gone.. I’ll be gone..

I’ll be…

I'm On One..

2011-05-26T01:02:00.001+08:00

All I care bout is money and the city that i'm from,

Imma sip till I feel it, Imma smoke till its done,

I don't really give a fuck and my excuse is that i'm young,

and i'm only getting older somebody should have told ya,

I'm on one, yeah fuck it, I'm on one..:)

Donate blood..its the right thing to do..:)

2011-05-15T20:16:00.001+08:00

Hello kengkawans..just a short post..about my blood donation experience..

Well it was awesome..I dunno why it was but it was..

The feeling of blood getting sucked out..makes me steam..serious..

..and to think that my enjoyable experience can save someone's life is a plus right..:)

Well before being sucked..hehe..had to meet this doctor..

and I ask how much will be sucked out..and he said 450 ml..

an average man has 5 litres..ooooh...now I knw..

Faiz can't donate cause he still boy..no kidding..he take medication..rejected!!

i'm fit like fuck and ready to be sucked..

..so dats all...the needle was huge..but it was no biggie..

the best part is got free stuff..i took 3 packets of milo..2 raisin boxes and 2 biscuits..

I feel awesome because the best thing to do with the best things in life is to give them up..kae dah..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Happy 42nd Birthday Mum!

2011-05-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

When I was a child, I knew you are always there for me.

And though my needs have changed since then, my feelings haven’t.

I still rely on you for so many things that only a mother can give.

When I need advice, I feel I can count on you to help me put things in their proper perspective.

When I have good news, I always want to share it with you…

And when things aren't going well, I know you’ll make things better just by listening, caring, and understanding...

That’s why, no matter how grown-up I may be…

No matter where I go in life or what I do.. I will never outgrow my love for you..:)

In the morning..

2011-05-05T20:32:00.001+08:00

Touche

2011-05-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

"You feel like you miss those happy days..well girl that makes two of us.."

Monster

2011-04-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

"I’m living in the future so the present is my past,

My presence is a present kiss my ass.."

..

2011-04-23T03:22:00.000+08:00

Hurtful words and losing trust,

The mind’s blown and the heart’s a bust,

The time froze so the clock will rust,

Yeah, my love died burned speckled dust,

Like the air when it’s cold, I’m icing through the solid,

Spend all my time loving you, I got an empty wallet,

Falling deep in a hole, when it land it crashes,

Engulf by the flame riding through the ashes,

Damn, where did all the fucking feelings go,

You played me good in a game that only you would know,

And I can’t believe that I still let you in the door,

I get high and lost whenever im feeling low,

Damn bitch, what’s all the fucking fuss about,

I let you in my home...just to point you out,

I swear I feel fucked whenever we end up in a fight,

That’s when I tell the other ladies im single for the night.......

Yeah im single,

Yeah my hearts attached but im ready for some mingle,

Damn im down…for whatever,

You just lead the way till we hit down to the covers,

Don't make me feel guilty don't make me feel ashamed,

Cause I know when shit goes bad, She’ll prolly do the same..

And by the morning we’ll be ok and I get back to my girl,

But tonight hit me up cause yeah im single…

Whatever Happens

2011-04-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

"He gives another smile, tries to understand her side,

To show that he cares,

you can stay in the room,

She's consumed, with everything that's been goin' on,

She says...

Whatever happens, don't let go of my hand.."

Dear blogger you've been neglected...I'm truly sorry...

Well actually I've been meaning to blog..really I do...since my last post which is like 28 march..

but somehow I just can't..there's a force field in my mind that blocks out my ability to do so..

and my brain have not been rained upon therefore I haven't been brainstorming for new poems..

In conclusion I suck luh basically..I guess its just a change of age..

Oh I'm 18!!woohoo..haha..6 days ago...

I know its abit late..but I like to thank you all for the wishes, the gifts, the wonderful time spent together...

and umm...FYI..no matter how happening or boring the plans are..

the most important thing that I enjoy most is the time that is spent together...

I mean we could go out and just sit down at a beach staring at the sea doing nothing and I'll still feel happy about it..

It's all a blessing..yeah...I know I don't believe that much in religion but yeah thank you god for blessing me with all this lovely people in my life...because blessing is usually associated with faith and religion which leads to the almighty and therefore I have no one else to thanked for right...

Sometimes I feel like I'm too don't-give-a-fuck-about-religion because how it plays out to me is just a bunch of stories like myths and legend and a whole lot of common sense..minus all the practices of prayers I'm actually very knowledgeable..ok enough of religion...

Hey I did go to madrasah kay..I love all the stories..and the rules..the words..

I only cabut the Quran recital the prayers..because..I'm too...__________..kae dah.

Well I like to thank my mum for the all paid trip to Phuket.. I did'nt fork out a cent...

cause I haven't been working..and I wanted to blog about Phuket luh..but as mentioned before you know you know..the climax of that trip was mum losing her IPHONE 4..which is like ironic because half the time she'll be reminding me to take care of my stuff..but she's a lucky woman...very lucky..

a korean family picked it up..and she got it back..it was a long story though..from the tears, the jump of joy..

that relieved smile...priceless..I even made a day diary in my phone to just post it on the blog..

but I didn't do it..oh well i'm fickle...

and umm...I enrol for driving..which I've been saving for..but I don't think it's enough...

sometimes I wish jobs would just come knocking at my door instead of me finding for it...

keep dreaming Asyraf..keep dreaming...

and last term I didn't do well..i scored a 3.0 something...

so my GPA dropped 0.3...so now its..3.3 something..thats brain fucked..

I thought I did good for WFB..but I got a B..I was like hell nah..

A B B C..how bad is that..god!!..compared to A A A B the previous term...

this term gotta buck up...and I don't really know how to calculate the GPA shit..

I just want get A for everything...boleh tak?

Well I can't blame the teachers for it..can I?

I think I bitch too much about how teacher's in my sec school can't teach for nuts..karma strikes..

but seriously luh...i'm like speaking the truth..

i'm a straightforward guy but I won't say to the teachers..you can't teach dammit!!

sometimes you'll just have to wait for them to notice for themselves.and just change you know..but they never did...

I think the teachers in ITE are more approachable and more understanding...

and I dunno how a student can like bond so much with a teacher...

a joke or two is fine luh..but to hit em like buddy2... is like woah..

I guess i'm just the type to draw the line..students here,teachers here...

and I'm not that kid who teachers would like anyway..hahaha..

cause half the time i'm nominated for shit I'll turn them down or just cabut you know..

Sucks to be me...put so much hope then i'll just piss on it..hurting..

and the other day I was thinking of Syafiqah...the old Syafiqah..

the first Syafiqah I met back on PAP..ahhaha..

you can say that's my first crush..what was I like 2?

I was thinking like..wouldn't it be awesome if I found her just to catch up on things..

like there's so many to talk about!!haha...

and she wasn't really that pretty either..chubby...but hey beauty is skin deep right...

I think that's what is missing from girls nowadays...

Wearing excessive make up to school does not make you pretty..

it makes you look pathetic..cheap..and umm wholesale..

I'm not saying you can't wear it.. I'm just saying..make up don't cover your attitude..

and half of this girls..put on false pretense.. they see good looking guys and they act all sweet hearted..

see average joes.. no smiles for nuts...

there's a line to differentiate a girl from a bitch..ok dah...

I'm going no where with this post..hahaha...

ok take care...and whatever happens..happens..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Who Knows

2011-03-28T03:30:00.000+08:00

I know if you try to you could turn these gray skies back to sky blue..

The Nipper

2011-03-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

It's an average book..nonetheless a good read considering the fact i'm not an avid reader..
And Nipper means a young boy or girl in British context..that's something new aye..:)

Overexposed!

2011-03-24T05:09:00.000+08:00

I would disown this bitch!hahahahaha...I love this guy!

Henderson Waves so Sentosa's Boardwalked..

2011-03-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

Have It Your Way

2011-03-20T04:08:00.000+08:00

"I'm a muthafuckin genious goddamit,

I ain't the type to murder you I'm more the type to plan it!!"-Drake
Hell yeah to that..

Please don't tell her..

2011-03-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

"Say it isn't so, how she easily comes, and she easy go,

Please don't tell her that I've been meaning to miss her..

Because I don't."

Prettiest Friend

2011-03-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

This is what I look like today,
And I'm trying not to pull out my hair,
I'm trying hard to grow it but I'm far too shy to show it back there,
That's probably why I like wearing hats,
There's no denying I'm deferring the facts,
Avoiding confrontation,
Lacks tact, in a situation,
Behind every line is a lesson yet to learn..

But if you ask me,
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming,
And oh, it goes to show,
I've so much to know..

I wrote this for my prettiest friend,
Who while trying not to prove that I care,
Trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away,
Well she can't see she's making me crazy now,
I don't believe she knows she's amazing how,
She has me holding my breathe,
So I'd never guess that I'm a none such unsuitable, suited for her..

And if you ask me,
The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentery,
And oh, it goes to show,
The moral of the story is boy loves girl,
And so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told..

I know that I should be brave,
Even pretty can be seen by the blind,
I know that I cannot wait,
Until the day we finally learn how to find each other,
Redefining open minds..

And if you ask me,
The feeling that I'm feeling is overjoyed,
And it's golden, it goes to show then,
The ending of this song should be left alone,
And so on 'cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told..

The Reason

2011-03-03T22:58:00.001+08:00

I'm treading the waters of forgetfulness,
I'm swimming down..the stream of tears,
nothing's with me but myself against the world,
and your the reason..your the reason..
I walk in the field of dreams,but I get lost in the nightmares,
cause I know theres no one right there,and I know that life is not fair,
can you just get lost from my head, as I lay here on my death bed,
and I remember what the wise said,
if you're not living life then you're half dead,
so I take all the emptiness,and I throw it in the sea,
much as I realise that half of you is me..

The misty breeze cloud up my eyes,
my vision's lost, with all the lies,
I hear miseries all surrounding me,
and your the reason..your the reason..
my soul burns, with the, commotion that's around me,
and I know that I just can't see, and I feel left out and lonely,
can you just get lost from my head, as I lay here on my death bed,
and I remember what the wise said,
if you're not living life then you're half dead,
so I take all the emptiness,and I throw it in the sea,
much as I realise that half of you is me..

Words I Never Said

2011-03-01T22:54:00.001+08:00

It's so loud inside my head with words that I should've said,

as I drown in my regrets, I can't take back the words I never said..

This Song by Asyraf & Hafeez

2011-02-26T01:53:00.004+08:00

I wrote this song..in like 45 mins..cause Hafeez guitar playing is like superbly inspirational..
much respect dude!
will I post the full song in my blog?..we'll see..for now..enjoy the lyrics..woohoo..:)

Hey babe,how long are we gonna be like this,

its been awhile now, the times i'll always miss,

like striking off our lovely to do list,

or the times we had our moment's bliss,

and with you the times i'll rather stay,

but things always don't seem to go my way,

you say you're fine but I know you're not ok,

its all different since you've been away,

and I knw your hearts' a distant but you'll feel the same,

since we give love a missing,

and if this song...you'll give it a listen,

I promise..it will be better...

Give me one more chance for me to make amends,

i'll never let this story ends,

cause this song this song it forever rings in my ear,

and your soft voice is always the tone that I hear,

I just wanna keep you near,

baby just listen to this song...

Baby give me your hand just one more time,
I promise now and ever you'll be mine,
the past has past so leave the past behind,
i'm putting my love's fragile heart on the line,
so please baby please don't let it be,
we came together, its called our destiny,
I can't hardly let you go,
to you again my love, I prove to you so,
and if you feel like I dont have intentions,
the reasons, seasons to catch you when you fall,
for you baby, i'll be there when you call,
a little rain comes the storm won't ever pull me down,
I know one day you'll be around,
and I'll put a smile on you,
and what comes on our way will only be us two,
be us two together, forever..so..

Give me one more chance for me to make amends,

i'll never let this story ends,

cause this song this song it forever rings in my ear,

and your soft voice is always the tone that I hear,

I just wanna keep you near,

baby just listen to this song...

This song...this song...I say this song...this song...

Hey!

2011-02-24T22:33:00.004+08:00

1st Pic

Asy: So what are we gonna pose?

Ross: How bout we like do this super awesome nose pulling?

Mira: *i'm just gonna smile now and not be unglam*

2nd Pic

Asy: Hell yeah my lobang hidung besar!

Ross: Oh wait I have to dig out this boogie.

Mira: *I'm hiding*

3rd Pic

Asy: Ok i'm getting bored..babes, last photo ok..

Ross: Ok epic pose! I do double peace sign!

Mira: Ok I'll just do one then..awww..

4th Pic

Ross: WOOHOOO!!! PEACE SIGNS WITH TEETH SMILE NOW!!

Asy: Damn...

Mira: Damn...

Ok my presentations are like over!!!woohoo!!! next up ETP final project..and exams...

oooh...*shivers*

Oh hey back to you AMIRAH!!!!!woohooo...

Ok you, Farah, Me, and anyone else..

your eximus..your fresh roll of film and tape..

COUNT ME IN!!!booya!

I Just Wanna Be Successful

2011-02-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

"Making your mark in the world is hard.

If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it's not.

It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failures along the way.

The real test is not whether you avoid this failures, because you won't.

It's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it;

whether you choose to persevere"

Barack Obama

Patience

2011-02-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

It’s crazy when you feed people the truth you don’t know how they’re gonna react.

You’re scared of wrong doers, people that just ignorant, You’re scared of the truth, be patient for now..-NAS

Venting

2011-02-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

This world is evil, phoney people, friends, crooks and such,

no black no white no equal yeah I know that much,

cause even the man said we are useless bums in the society,

and propriety goes to whoever shows the most filial piety,

inside of me, I swear that's not much to be said..

...so I show the world what I got instead,

its dead, like how my rhyme book is a good spot when im sick and im lost,

like a hiding place when my parents were in the midst of divorce,

but I was lucky though, mum was there when my nights were cold,

inspirational her, chicken soup for the soul,

I guess the times they wasted on the quarrels and the fightings’,

was the day that I showed interest in my very own writings,

nobody notice, nobody but me,

nobody knew what was destiny, it was destine to be,

in a maze deep in a forest of a whole new dimension,

adolescent; teenager’s state of mental depression,

it’s cool though, how I’m kicking with all this knowledge,

in a couple more months I’ll be out of this college,

and saying bye bye to the school and hell to all the course loads,

then I’ll be free to deal with people who talk in morse codes,

I swear when the jokes on you it’s not even that funny,

Wearing a sweater when it’s hot and sunny,

life’s not all sweet like candy and honey, and not all hippity hoppy like a bunny....

funny..me..

I heard whatever happens just happens for a reason, what a bummer,

I was hoping the season can spring us up when we fall in the summer,

With all the cuts and the bruises, all the blood that oozes,

Or time spend in class snoozing, drooling at the same time,

Or friends who are stuck in the same line,

Who fail miserably but they still trying,

Cause they only have one thing that’s in mind,

Success, yeah success, it's deep,

It’s all about the effort and the thought, it counts,

Cause the reason we let go is for a new one to be found,

And the new one just gave a big frown,

Cause the old one’s still sticking around,

Did it make sense??, well to me it did,

Would it better if we did a skit???Light camera action on this shit,

Nah It wouldn’t,

Cause we always fall in a dilemma between the truth and the lies,

That’s when your credibility just shrunk in size,

It shrinks to the point where nobody understands you,

And you only have yourself to attend to,

That’s when life gets lonely and a little bit deprive,

And death looks better when you’re alive,

But don’t do that shit and pull yourself together, make a plan,

just like when i'm angry its only words that I vent..

Hardest Thing

2011-02-07T19:45:00.006+08:00

Look maybe I should just be clear,

It sucks not having you here,

there ain't a better way to say it other then how I just said it clear clear clear clear,

like a bottle of Avian you can see through me my ego ain't here,

so many clever words, nice things..that I can say,

but the truth then and the truth now has gon' missing...

The hardest thing to say is what I ain't saying,

and the best way to say it is to just say it,

wanna run away from the world, but I can't run away from the world,

the hardest thing to say is usually worth saying,

Girl I love you...still.

I try to go so much without a call,

I mean i'm an attractive guy and all,

maybe I can find something in the club or something in the mall mall mall,

but them girls didn't matter and this money ain't distracting me much at all,

I know some clever words and nice things that I could say,

but the truth then and the truth now has been the same..

The hardest thing to say is what I ain't saying,

and the best way to say it is to just say it,

wanna run away from the world, but I can't run away from the world,

the hardest thing to say is usually worth saying...

Girl I love you..

Girl I wanted to cry but I made it look easy,it ain't,

holding in the same face,

and it was harder to stay, so I made it look easy,it ain't,

so just get up and walkaway,

now im alone and tears do fall,

open my mouth and the words do fall,

now im standing here afterall,

its probably how im sorting it out..

The hardest thing to say is what I ain't saying,

and the best way to say it is to just say it,

wanna run away from the world, but I can't run away from the world,

the hardest thing to say is usually worth saying...

Girl I love you...still..
Lonny Bereal

Spazz!

2011-01-27T22:24:00.003+08:00

Hello dimwits and doo wops..what is up? not down duh...
ok..this photo I adore..not because pretty mira sunshine is beside me..ok luh partly..
and not because im wearin icha's groovy nerdy striking cool shades and I love it..
but..my face like spotless like dat uh..like clean..macam cool giler gitu...
its like walking on fire and saying its cold..kae merepek tak layan..
aniwaes this pic is like during my roleplay day..
which I think I screwed up..but thats alright..everyone has screwed up in life before...
I mean if you're perfect..you won't know what life is..right?entah..
but I hope it wont be costly though
well I dunno what to update actually..just felt like it..
Lets talk about Jan intake peep-po..
The guys are HUGE..they look like they've been in ITE for years...
they make me look like I just enrolled..damn..how did you get so big...
the girls..are fine..fullstop..
some guys step terror..some girls step glamour..as usual..
and Dekai coming here..woohooo...April intake..hell yeah!!!!
junior much..his name reminds me of Drake..its crazy..I know
And I so badly want to go New Zealand..its like the place I want to visit before I lay on my death bed..
I just so want it I can feel New Zealand's air right now..
I want moolah...
I can't wait for attachment either..anywhere away from school projects..homework..exams..
I knw the society is a meanie..im a meanie myself..so lets roll..
my posts are getting more and more boring..I should go out more often..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Remembered

2011-01-27T21:23:00.003+08:00

Just for that one moment, I remembered about me and you,

the times where we had nice conversations or the times we had things to do,

I remembered those random photos we took, and the flashes always bugs my eye,

thats when you cover my eyes with your hands and told me dont forget to smile,

I remembered those poetry we made, our rhymes are like two peas in a pod,

by the time we are done perfecting, it turned out better than we thought,

I remembered those times where we, would be strolling around the park,

singing till our hearts content eventhough our voices kinda suck,

I remembered we loved to skate, holding hands thinking we won't fall,

a little cut or bruise wont stop us, matter fact it wont bother us at all,

I remembered your sweet perfume, when we hug I tend to kiss your neck,

that's when your face would light up and you would give me a little peck,

I remembered those folded letters, I would send to you by mail,

and I would get your replies everytime everyday wihout fail,

I remembered the days where we had our fights and our love goes a lil' cold,

somehow we manage to warm things up and to you again I hold,

I remembered all the things about us, no matter big or small,

no matter how good or bad it is, whether surprised or appaled...

and I remembered the place where we first met, the spot where we once said Hi,

the place where we broke off too,the spot where we said goodbye,

Just for that one moment, I remembered about me and you,

the times when we were together, and the time when we were through...

Daddy's Little Earner.:)

2011-01-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

...

2011-01-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

We got our dreams shattered and our heart's in pain,

we get back up on our 2 feet just to fall again,

we desire and fantasize what we can never gain,

cuts and bruises on the skin, smeared blood stain,

we started of cool, ended up burned amidst the fire,

we kept mum to ourselves but the temptations got higher,

we fell into hell's trap just to worship our believes,

stumble on the ashes, pouring darkness over grieve,

hate served cold on the platter, ignorance with sides of gloom,

melancholy poetry,obscure meaning of doom...f*ck!

CLASS IS IN SESSION!!

2011-01-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

Here we go again....damn

Dark

2011-01-05T02:37:00.000+08:00

Sitting down, left alone,
Building castles in the air,
Surreal reality, hopeless dreams,
False hopes, counts of despair

Getting up,falling down,
Open window,stare and waited,
Broken hearts,teary eyed,
Memories soon be faded

Breaking dawn,lost of will,
Emotions run deep within,
Empty stares,morning prayers,
Mind's vanquish,deadly sin,

Empty life, wrong directions,
Soul to take,breath be drown,
Grief of lost,moments paused,
Silence to all the sound,

Winds of change,crumbling pieces,
Breaking walls,collapsing tower,
Out of depth,eclipse of shine,
Falling rain,darkest hour...

...

2011-01-04T03:14:00.001+08:00

Make sure you don't fall in love..

Cause I don't have the time for that..

Drake-Fancy(New Years Eve)

2011-01-02T20:31:00.001+08:00

Finally back in Toronto,it’s better here,
I just wanna be anywhere but everywhere,
I’m being lazy at the crib....,
I get enough exercise just pushing my luck,
Sitting back thinking, "damn where did they go?",
They used to be the ones to watch Ricki Lake show,
And now I see em' picking up the pieces,
One too many starting over speeches,
I guess...it’s back to me like it always was,
Me and the OVO set like it always was,
A little money on the counter I left for my girl,
With a note; "I’m tryna see the rest of the world.",
It all looked so amazing when we were growing up,
Used to sit back and say I know I’ll get a model one day,
But all the money in the rap game slow as fuck,
And all the models from the hood; Project Runway,
Yeah, it’s whatever,you know,feeling good,living better,
But it’s evident that nothing can prepare us for certain moments that you just gotta cherish,
Like this young girl had my lyrics tatted on her arm last night,
We took a picture together,I hope she frames it,
And I was drinking at the Palms last night,
And ended up losing everything that I came with, yeah
Feel like I been here before huh?
Yeah, I still got 10 years to go huh?
This is the only sound you should fear,
Man, these kids wear crowns over here and everything is alright!!!!

AWESOME!!!

Cuteness

2010-12-31T04:12:00.001+08:00

IDesire

2010-12-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

Vans Ruark

Vans Suede Bedford

Vans Tony Trujillo TNT II Mid Cup - Tec Tuff

Nike Blazer Hi Vintage

Vans Chukka Low Black with White Stripes

WTAP X Vans Syndicate Bash 'S'

Vans Spitfire

Vans Chukka Low Spring 09'

...

2010-12-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

Claiming im just not as serious as you..baby if you only knew..this is serious...

:)

2010-12-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

HELLO AMIRAH AZHAR
&
YASMIN HAYAT..
*WAVES*

I Like Boring Things

2010-12-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

I Like Boring Things...I bet you said that sentence like 3 times already.hah!

Ok humanoids..[humans + paranoid = humanoids]...

I hope that you miss me a little when I was gone..cause I sure am missing on things to say on this blog..

first of all..*applause* rossa for making a blog..

who can ever resist the temptations of keeping memories...nobody..

people can change but memories cant..

I think thats why girls like to dig up the past, just to add fuel to the fire..

*Ok babe I know I ate your cheesecake,.im sorry..let me buy you another one..*

*No I dont want another one..remember that time when you ate my muffin..*

*..and that time you said the same thing!you dont want another one!*

I swear girls are very fickleminded..just hurry up and tell me what you want from me already..damn..

not being sexist..its just something I have notice..a fact..from my perspective..

and I am so not being judgemental...*coughs*

Aww man I swear my life is mundane..that its gon to the point im reading every quote there is on the web..

but ironicly this quotes fucking hype me up to do shit..

like maybe jog,go to the gym,hang out,study,clean the household or kill somebody..haha

nah..im not the type to murder you im the type to plan it..oooh...

and I had SVE roleplay the other day..I was nervous..mygod..

Everything was like planned out nicely and stuff..its something about videotaping I dont like...

cause I hate to see my flaws or let people see my flaws..im fucking weird and absurd..

im fucking me dammit..I own myself!..nobody can tell me who I can or cannot be! I write my own praises!haha..kae dah..

I think I screwed up for the proffesional image part....

Icha say my hands was all over the place like I was rapping or something..

This hands got a mind of their own dammit.

I notice I curse alot now..I bet people notice too..my end sentences will end with a fuck in it or a sial in it..

My politeness just plummits like asteroids to your face..

I really hope I get good results though..I cant afford to like fail all the time...everything has a cost in it..

you pay to go to school..so if you like dont attend it just because you dont feel like it..

well damn you to hell your wasting money..and a big fuck you cause its never your money..

Next week the holidays start..woohoo much?hell nah..

I got projects to do..I want to work uh...can?

I know its a teeny weeny bit early but my resolution for next year is to have my face like fucking clean..

like smooth and glowing and all that jazz...dats all I want...

besides being successful..SUCCESS is the shit yow..

Qyiqy is weird..she told me she ate bird's shit before..I mean..

why the fuck do you wanna even try to know what shit taste like..

just acknowledge the fact you got hit by the bird's projectiles..

and brush that dirt of your shoulder man..damn..

Curiousity does not just kill the cat man..it fucking left a stench for a lifetime..

and remember kids..Praying to pass your exams or praying to do well dont do shit..

you just have to prove to god that you dont need his fucking help for a change..

I mean everyone has their fucking problems and I am sure god has problems too..

so don't be selfish kids..carry your own burden..

ok dah..this is going nowhere..

I JUST WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Dreams-J Cole

2010-12-04T23:46:00.011+08:00

Yeah! Uh!

Yeah, you gotta look,

You gotta follow me, what I'm doin' rite here mayne

Like when I say this shit is crazy,

I don't mean it's crazy like crazy

I just mean crazy like it's fuckin', it's actually crazy,

Nah'mean

Yeah!

Seems like I always had crushes on chicks I couldn't have

And then I end up fucking with someone I shouldn't have

See, in my mind, it's like I'm perfect for her, I gotta show her

But sadly, in reality, dog, I don't even know her

But still somehow she got my mind infatuated

Absolutely fascinated with the thoughts of what she might be like

Time after time after time I had to wait, is-

Is fate procrastinating?

I can take it 'cause I might be right, 'cause it's

This is the girl of my dreams, yeah

Ay, is she good as what she seems?

Uh, or am I lying to myself?

Uh, ay should I try and get some help?

Yeah, this is the girl of my dreams

Is she good as what she seems?

Or am I lying to myself?

Ay, should I try and get some help?

Yeah, yeah

Oh shit, she passed me on the boulevard

Ay, tell me is it stalking if I follow her

Like all the way home without her knowing

Nah, nigga, I'm just curious where she stay at

Besides when I'm with her, this gon' be the spot we lay at

And maybe I'll just drive by occassionally

And if one day I happen to see her outside, she wave to me,

Imagine what she'll say to me

This ain't no time to be afraid no more

It's time for bravery

No matter if my homies think I'm crazy

This the girl of my dreams

Hey, ay is she good as what she seems?

Uh, or am I lying to myself?

Uh, ay should I try and get some help?

Yeah, this is the girl of my dreams

Ay, is she good as what she seems?

Or am I lying to myself?

Ay, should I try and get some help?

Yeah, yeah, look

I spot her walking in the mall, okay, it's time to grow some balls

If she really gon' be yours, oh my god, I'm walking towards her

My mind screaming stop, but my legs keep walking forward

Straighten up your face, nigga, she see you coming for her

My heartbeat racing, and my hands keep shaking

Say something, you shy motherfucker, she's waiting,

"Wassup girl, don't mean to interrupt

But in the city I done met a lot of women

But you from my dreams, ay will you come true?

I know about a show that we can catch,

Some R&B and rap, ay you should come thru"

She said, "uh, I love too, except I don't like rap

Besides, if I went with you, then I don't really think my man would like that"

Damn! Man,

Okay, you say you got a man,

I mean, I definitely understand, I'm happy for you, really am,

I couldn't have been the only fan in the world Of a girl like you

I mean, you're beautiful, and I'm sure he's a very nice dude

It ain't no biggie, well I'm sure that I'm gon' see you around the city

Only thing I ask if shit don't work out for y'all, don't forget me

And don't act like a stranger when you see me on the scene

I came up with a world-class scheme to get

The girl of my dreams

Uh, ay is she good as what she seems?

Uh, or am I lying to myself?

Or should I try and get some help?

This is the girl of my dreams

Ay is she good as what she seems?

Or am I lying to myself?

Ay should I try and get some help?

Yeah, yeah

So I find out the nigga name, know exactly where he stayin'

Find out when he leave for work, hold up nigga, is you sane?

I'm a follow in my car; I'm a cut in front of his

Run him right into the wall, maybe even off the bridge

I give her a little time, then console her while she crying

She gon' take that as a sign; finally she will be mine

I'll be king, and she'll be queen when I hit her with ring

At the wedding, who gon' sing?

This the girl of my dreams

Is she good as what she seems?

Or am I lying to myself?

Ay should I try and get some help?

Ay, this is the girl of my dreams

Is she good as what she seems?

Or am I lying to myself?

Think I should I try and get some help?

Fucking love this song..<3

Ground Zero

2010-12-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

I meet a girl named Crystal, her last name ball,I look into her eyes and I can see it all,

see it when she cry, i'm there when she call, cause I live inside of the mirror of the wall...-Lil Wayne-

Believe

2010-11-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not..

I Made It Home

2010-11-19T15:59:00.000+08:00

I'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming home,
let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes,
i'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming...

I'm back again,feeling like a different man,
you can tell the whole world ,i'm coming in,
you can come along, if you feel the same,
so throw your ones up in the air,you know dat it's meant for you,
once you reach the top and get it there,you know your dreams are coming true..

Success could'nt be that long,I made it this far so lets just carry on,
burden on my shoulder is weighing down my chest,
but there's nothing in the world that can stop my conquest,
the world will come to a demise,suicidal cold,
but thats god's judgement, not someone to be said or told,
momma tell me to keep my head up and weather the storm,
I promise her imma do her proud till i'm dead and i'm gone,
cause daddy ain't around when it rains,when it pours,
when they knock at the doors,broken pots, painted walls,
I swear, I went through the type of shit,that was hefty,
but momma stood by my side,she never seem to left me,
throw your ones up in the air if we on the same page,
as we turn our backs and leave when we come to the edge,
so I know, that im not always there alone,
so tell momma i'll give her hugs and kisses when i'm home..

I'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming home,
let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes,
i'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming...

People dont believe that i'll make it,but I will,
I have faith in myself so I know its going to be real,
the vision, the mission, the decision, I conceal,
is a duty that I carry out even if its surreal
the pain and struggle you gon' think that its everlast,
before I make my future I must let go of the past,
theres not much of life that I benefit to see,
but enough to make me realise what im destined to be,
They say you'll never know what you have until its gone,
but move on, and mend the heart even if it's torn,
I figure,my soul can run but it's not leaving,
as long as my heart reminds it that...

I'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming home,
let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes,
i'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming...

So please don't take me away from here,
let me do what I have to do before I dissapear,
before my life comes to an end and its hard to bare,
I will throw my last ones up in the air..say..

I'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming home,
let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes,
i'm coming home,i'm coming home,
tell the world i'm coming...

20102010

2010-10-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

"How much hate exists in the world,

Yet, even so, hearts continue to love,

Even if lovers should die,

even if they are erased from this earth,
their love (story) will live on forever"-Mohabbatein

Once Upon A Time Nobody Gave A Fuck.

2010-10-14T23:18:00.003+08:00

I've got some issues that nobody can see,
and all of these emotions are pourin' outta me,
I bring them to the light for you,
it's only right,
this is the soundtrack to my life...

Would'nt it be like awesome if we could make a song about our life..

and it would be a major hit plus make money out of it!hah!

quoted from DRAKE.."I make a living of truly being myself"

now that is something!!!!Drake's awesome!!

Hello people..im back by popular demand??nah..back cause me bloggeh getting dustay..:D

Actually i've been in and out of blogger but end up doing nothing....hmmm.

Updates in my life...I got 3.765 my for my GPA...*screams like a bitch*.

success is darn sweet pls..:D

There's only one 4 pointer in my class..WEIXIANG!!!*applause*

but like he said.."Not gonna be living a life of proud ego but mere humbleness.."

kae lovely..
I love to quote people's sayings..it boost my morale!!

and I finally realise what I'm aiming for...what I wanna become..

I think i've only begun to improve myself..

I really feel like this is just...like a start to what I hope would be..some say it legendary..

and eventually history..or what people talk about sometimes..

or when mum can proudly mention, "my baby did it and I knew it.."..

but there will be a day..that I will fall..and crumble..but everyone does...don't they?

I dont know when is that or whats going to happen..all I know is that its now right now..thats for sure...:)

I JUST WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL!..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Just Like You...

2010-10-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

I Get Lonely Too..

Floor staff..:D

2010-09-20T22:42:00.005+08:00

Hello trannies and butches..and straight people..:D

Oh today..I started working again at TOYS'R'US...as a floor staff...

Me like doing things thats makes me hot and sweaty...dayumm..kae no..

I just like something to do rather than wait for something to do..ya know..

adrenaline rush much..

Lesson number 1..never wear a singlet..double layer...

Omg hotness man...

Lesson number 2..when cutting boxes..remember your hand is not part of it..

I cut myself..stupid kan...but the scar is like uber GANGSTA!haha..

Lesson number 3..when you realise your hand is dirty..never wipe the sweat of your face with that hand..

Lesson number 4..When doin floor..dont wear expensive shoe..

Now im just gonna use it since its oredi dirty..shiish..

Lesson number 5..Never ask Madeline a question..cause she will tell a story..

haha..:D

Lesson number 6..Everyones unique and special..dont compare..

ok enough....confucious say.."When you make life a lesson..who the fuck needs teachers"

ok no..he didnt say that...

Ok I met new people..3 just now...I tot it would be like scary...

but nah..they aite....

Theres something bout Mastura..like I know her from somewhere..hmmm

She got that cool vibe..

and I think smoking makes me thirsty..dats why after work..me and ain...

We went to coffee bean...and I got that!!!*Shows the picture*

its called Berry'd Treasure..and its Berry'd nice too..:D

I have to go to suntec and united square tmr...damn...

and I only got wed off..damn...

I need money...I need to buy shoe..I need to be SUCCESSFUL..

I work hard..so I deserve it..rite?..peace and love baby..POINTBLANKPERIOD

Don't wanna be in love-Ne-Yo

2010-09-19T02:00:00.002+08:00

Dont want to know you,dont wanna know your name,
Dont wanna call you and talk about anything,
Dont wanna like you dont care if you like me,
Say if you havent caught on yet,im lying through my teeth,
See the problem is,
More I fight it,the harder it gets to deny it,
With everything in me,wants to be with you,
But I've seen where love can leave you devastated,
So everyday I look in the mirror and say this,
Tell myself I dont wanna be,I dont wanna be in love,
Dont wanna be, I dont wanna be in love,
Cause I know what it is and I know what it does,
So I dont wanna be in love,right now its much too much..
Dont wanna be in love..

Celebration-Drake

2010-09-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

How’d I do how’d I do, baby tell me how you feel,
They say real girls ain’t never perfect, perfect girls ain’t real,
I’d I agree, but I guess we’ll just wait and see,
Cause I swear you act like perfect is the only way to be,
Nothing matters ‘cept for you, don’t let no one out here blind you,
Don’t remember why you love me, please allow me to remind you,
And I know you left me once, but I came right back to find you,
Even though I like being in your past you got a bright future behind you,
Oh, damn, oh,
Girl I must admit I look amazing next to you,
Girl you crazy, sexy, cool and you stayed obsessed to school,
But thats good, cause you know that them grades impress me too,
And my free days are just for you, but I don’t get many,
Its like every time we spend time, it feels like the first time,
Cause we never spend enough time, you catch me at the worst time,
It ain’t like your not worth time, just I don’t control it,
But tonight I made it happen just to celebrate the moment,
Give it up one time...

Messy..

2010-09-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

The worst part in messing up your paper is the fact that you studied for it..damn